When you don't want a divorce but see no alternative?

god gifted u ur soul mate as said by u ..u got beautiful children's..ups and down comes in life. if u led a happy life then sometimes u need ton led a difficult life too but u should smile and tackle. be soft with your hubby express your love towards him tell him how important is he in your life,see his reaction if still he is reacting like a scoundrel then just throw him out of your life ,he does not deserve your love then,let him regret one day he will surely realise what he is going to loose and don't feel bad for your children,let them grow and understand they will surely be with you but don't let your children be with that person,i wish you both get together,gud luck gal